For the past two years that I’ve been a part of my dearest organization, I’ve seen a lot of love being spread and shared. But this school year is kind of different. Different in a way that a lot has happened between all of us and that there’s already a lot of love being shown by couples in the org.
I used to tease Myra and Toby when they were just freshmen students groping for belongingness in the university. Until after a few months, they eventually got together. Then, came this couple that I consider my “project”. I love seeing them together and teasing them. And well my “project” turned out to be an excellent JC couple. Angel and Giro were simply perfect. But sometimes, just like school projects, that project of mine eventually went down the drain ’cause they decided to just go on their separate ways. It was totally devastating for me but there was nothing I could do.
Anyway, like I was saying, 2010 was totally different. From the together-we’ll-be-forever Toby and Myra, came other interesting love interests, attempts at relationships, failures in getting together and of course, officially being called a couple. Cliché as it may sound but it was a roller coaster ride for all of us. I was a witness to all this love affairs and dramas. I was always the in-between. Oh yes, I was. Crazy roller-coaster/Viking/bump car ride…
Now, there are four couples in the organization. Myra-Toby, Kim-Brad, CJ-Ranel, Kimbebe-Gian.
And as I watch them being with each other, caring for each other, I feel sincerely happy for them, and they’ve always known that. I am happy because just as what my favorite line from the movie Moulin Rouge says: “The greatest thing you’ll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return.”
But when your friends find someone they want to be with, sometimes things change. Of course I don’t want them to but they did.
I’ve got nothing much to say about Myra and Toby. I’ve seen how much they care for each other and even give them advices during the times they were having troubles.
Kimbebe and Gian’s story is a far more complicated one. But now, I am truly happy for them because of how things are perfectly going for their relationship. And the best part is, (and I think the best part and most important part of a relationship) both of their families have talked and they get together when they can. It’s really amazing! And they are really lucky to have each other.
Kim and Brad is my favorite couple. Kim is like my bestfriend in college and Brad is one of the few people who really know me. I love seeing them together and how things are turning out between them. I just simply love them.
CJ is my thesis partner, my confidante, my partner-in-crime. She is the best thesis partner anyone can have. Ranel is like my guy bestfriend in college. Of course, there’s Billie and Ian, my bestest friends but Ranel and I have been friends since my first year in UP.
Ranel and I used to live in the same dormitory before. With Kim, Billie, Ian and Gian, we used to walk home together. He tells me almost everything about big decisions in his life. I was even supposed to be a correspondent for Tinig ng Plaridel (official student publication of Masscom) during the 2010 USC elections, but I said I can’t because I promised Ranel I will support him no matter what and I’ll be part of his personal campaign team. So I did. I spent late nights for dormitories and room to room campaigns.
I even know the girls he liked and the things he did for them. I felt that we were closer than before and I was happy knowing I had a friend like him. I really considered him a very close friend. Oh, you might wonder if I liked him. Oh no. I don’t. And this is the funny part. Before they were together, CJ even thought that I love him, as in romantic love. Oh no, no, no. I love him, the platonic kind of love. He knows that, everybody knows that. I just find it funny for people to suspect I like him. And CJ and I just laughed about it.
So much of that like-love issue, I am really happy seeing CJ and Ranel together and I can also feel how happy Ranel is. I know this is what he really deserves for being such a great guy. I am truly happy because they are happy.
However, things do change. And lately, I’ve felt this change and it made me sad. It’s not jealousy or something; it’s just that we don’t talk much like we did before and sometimes I miss that. Ranel has always been honest, sometimes rough, most of the time nice to me but nowadays, he’s being hard on me and always telling me to stop doing this and that, to leave him alone. I don’t know. I just feel really bad at how things are going. Many of our friends and orgmates may have noticed how I always teased him or make fun of him just like I always did. We’ll, I’m sorry for being rude and mean but sometimes, I just feel it’s just that I miss the friendship we had before. When I was mean to him before things got real heavy, he would just frown and tell me, “Grabe ka naman.” But now, when I tease him or joke by making fun of him, he would tell me “Tumigil ka nga” or “Pakialam mo”. Am I too harsh? I mean, I was like that to him before and it was all a joke and everybody knows that. But have I been too much? Or is it because he changed?
Of course, I simply want my friends to be happy. And now that they are, I want them to stay that way. Maybe this is just one of those rants you feel when your friend gets together with somebody. But I am not jealous. Oh no, don’t get the wrong idea. It’s just that I miss the old friendship we had.
I really do hope that things will turn out to be better for the coming months before I graduate. And I will still treasure every kind of friendship I have with these people because they are the truest friends I have along with my other orgmates.
Myra and Toby, keep the love you have and let it grow. Kimie and Brad, this is just the beginning. Kimbebe and Gian, you have a really strong relationship and stay inspired like you are now. As for my brother and sister by heart, Giro and Angel, I do hope love will find its way back into your hearts. CJ and Ranel, I could’nt wish for anything else but for you to stay happy and together.
Ranel, I’m sorry for being mean. Sorry if I’ve hurt you with my words. I know you hate me sometimes but this is how I am. I’m sorry and please understand. You are still one the greatest friends I have.
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