I miss the drama. Yes I admit, I know that I am more twisted than I may seem and a little less sane than I usually am. But lately, I feel so bored, empty at times. No, I'm not lonely. I feel like my "being human" is getting the best of me. I feel like I need to feel something, anything.
I didn't find any interesting (or challenging, should i say) crush in the office. And lately, I feel like I always want to hibernate and stay in my room like all those stereotypical tumblr people they describe in tumblr. haha.
I'm not sure if I'm making sense right now but basically, what I'm saying is, I think I need to fall in love again. Yes, I miss the drama of it all. I miss the "kilig", the chances, simple glances, the excitement for tomorrow no matter how bad a that would turn out to be. I miss writing as well. I usually become more inspired to write whenever there is someone I could think about. I miss writing not just about love but life in my the craziest or most serious perspective. Sometimes, I even feel scared that I am missing out on a lot of things I unconsciously ignored because I didn't have the will, or didn't pay enough attention because I wasn't in the mood.
But at least I am happy now. I guess I just missed the feeling. I think I am enjoying solitude too much. Oh well, solitude is liberating. And I might just write about that soon.
P.S. Dear crush, where are you? hahaha :P
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